KIM KELEVRA

20. Write A Wish List Of Ten Things.

I’m only finishing this because someone asked me to. So here you go :)

My Wishlist of 10 things:
1. A steady job.
2. My own apartment.
3. To own all the books and comics that I love - and it’s ALOT.
4. For my family and best friends to reach their dreams and goals.
5. To find the courage to talk about my feelings.
6. To write the books I’ve always wanted to write.
7. To always be there for the people I love.
8. Allow and dare myself to dream bigger.
9. Travel around the world with my mom.
10. To find that special someone. My love. The one who I can’t live without. The one I hope to marry.

This was actually harder than I thought to answer.
But I hope it will do.

Love to you all. /Kim

19. Five Celebrity Crushes.

1. You recognize him with all certainty as one of the bad guys in “Avatar” or Phoebe’s weird brother in “Friends” but my absolute longest celeberty crush has been in this man since I saw him in “The Gift” from 2000 (Me 11 years old at the time). I’ve almost seen all the movies he is in and I never get tired of looking at him. That he plays misfits roles and in two movies of my favourites  is involved with bondage is very appreciated. My favorite movies: “Heaven”, “The Gift”, “Perfect Stranger” and “The Dead Girl”.

2. The first time I saw Timothy was in the movie “Go”. Where he plays a pain in the ass drug dealer and after that, I’ve been very fond of him. You have to recognize him from “Die Hard 4.0” where he plays the evil computer hacker, or from “Hitman” which was really bad. But for all the hardcore “Sex and The City” fans, you should most know him from where he plays a young guy who briefly dates Carrie. You know, the guy with the pierced tongue. My favorite movies: “Go”, “Dreamcatcher”, “Die Hard 4.0” and “I Am Number Four”.

3. Let me introduce you all - Thomas Jane. The man who plays Frank Castle/Punisher in the film “The Punisher” my absolute favorite of all comcic books. That the film itself may not be so strong is all the same because there’s really awesome scenes and much else that is sustainable. He also participates in many Stephen King movies I like. For example, “Dreamcatcher” which both Jane and Olyphant are with. It could not be better. Other favoitfilmer: “The Mist”, “Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World” (Yeah, he’s in there) and the television series “Hung”.

4. You all know who Alcide from “True Blood”. Superhunk and werewolf - 90% of all women in the world want and we will always remember the scene in season four when you see almost everything when he drops his pants. Yes, Joe Manganiello’s not ugly at all. We can conclude that directly. But did you know that he plays Mary Jane’s high school boyfriend in Spiderman? Nah, you can hardly believe it when you see the movie either.

5. Last but not the least, my absolute sweetheart - Joseph Gordon-Levitt. He needs no introduction or pointers in movies you may have seen him because he is in movies one dosen’t forget. My favourites is “Inception”, “500 Days Of Summer”, “Mysterious Skin”, “Uncertainty”, “Manic” and “Brick”.

18. My Views On Drugs and Alcohol.

I told you in an earlier response to this challenge that drugs almost killed me. Therefore, my view on drugs should not be particularly surprising. I think it’s terrible with people who waste time and their life on something that is still only going to kill them. It makes me sad every time. I wish they could understand that one can reach the feelings that you get when you are high even in a sober state. You just have to find the ways to do it. I have found ways to make me feel a hundred times better than I ever did when I was using drugs. I hope that in the near future that I can help people who had problems with drugs. Not through lectures or to hand out anti-drug propaganda. But just to show how I felt and how I overcame my inner demons and my problems that went hand in hand with my drug use.

When it comes to alcohol - it’s a little harder. I see it as a drug and have also taken a distance to it. I get very mixed reactions when I say that I am teetotaler, very often they are negative. I do not understand why because I do not look negative on those who drink. I think we all have our freedom to make our own choices, and why should I be convicted of choosing my path. I do not sit and laugh at people who drink and I do not sit and think them to be stupid. Why should I be treated like that? I may not drink wine or beer at dinner with my family or my friends. I may even miss being drunk and dance the night away. But then I find that I still have dinner with my friends and still have fun and I still dance when I’m out clubbing, I just do it sober. But just because I choose to be sober at this time in my life that does not mean that I will be there for the rest of my life. I have the freedom to choose and why I will use that freedom. But we must not forget that there are people out there who suffer from alcohol problems and also, in its way, is a drug.

17. My Insecurities.

Over the past year I have gained weight and that have resulted that most of my insecurities now days are superficial. Old insecurities I already defeated has now resurfaced and I find myself in front of the mirror staring at them again. I am not ashamed of my body - I will never be. But I am no longer accustomed to see what I see in the mirror anymore and I ask myself constantly if it suits me. My entire family and all my friends love it. Really love it. They say I look healthier out and looks more like a woman now. I’ve always been curvy and female in my appearance but being underweight most of your teenage years resulted that I forgot and now it stares back every time I look at my reflection. All questions that flooded that it would be too much or too little or not enough. But I know that those insecurities will fade away the more time passes and the more I encounter them. I will not let my insecurity and fear rule my wellbeing more.

I could also bullshit about my mental insecurities but I kind of want to keep those for myself because they have much to do with my therapy and feel no need having everyone of my followers knowing about that too. Sorry my loves, not this time.

16. Describe My Relationship Status.

There’s is absolutley nothing to describe. I have no boyfriend and if I’m horny I get myself laid or use my vibrator. End of story.